A memory in the past

Assalamu'alaikum.. Bismillah~ Hello, hi and welcome friendly reader. I have come today after a year of updating in my last post. There's a lot of stuff going on right now. I am my own slow phase in recovering from my depression., I would love to tell you the story, but not today. Today is the day where I should put my most awesome person pin down forever here and in my heart.

In regards the event that has happen to me. My beloved father pass away. (innalillahwa inna hirojiun) 18/01/2016. This date will be the date I will remember most. everything that happen before and after. Allah Almighty love my abah (father) more. He was in pain, and he suffers many years before he pass away. It sadden me, seems like I was in the spot of the time. People are pointing fingers and telling me things. 4 word "I wasn't born prefect".

I humbly accept their words of punishment to my brain. Telling me what to do, telling me what I did wrong. I don't know why people never did ask me and had a heart to heart talk rather then lashing their anger on me. Instead of lashing out..how bout try the word "heart to heart" like an adult would do?. My father is on his death bed.. struggling to stay and breath so hard. He heard what they said..he heard what I scream on to about. 

I am not a perfect daughter, but all I can do is make something else matter. A small help which my mom and dad couldn't do at that time. I don't tell people to look matters in my own point of view. I just want them to know what they failed to ask me before lashing me off. I just want to be heard, something like a fathers daughter couldn't do is to ask an advice at time he is to sick to be able to get up on his own. What am I suppose to do other then support in silent..I can't even look at him straight without crying..or feeling sad and sorry for him. I am not perfect abah..I hope you heard me when I ask you for forgiveness 4 days before you passed.

photos from google

That's the only thing I can hope for, and hope you be happy where you are at now, no pain, no sadness. I can only pray in silent and hope Allah s.w.t forgive the sin no matter how big it is, and take you to heaven and be bless with heaven eternity. I love you abah. I hope to see you again and hug you and cry on your chest. I miss you abah. Semoga roh abah di tempatkan bersama orang yang beriman. amin. There's nothing more I wish for my dad except happiness forever to where ever he is in heaven.

I am sorry if this post is a lil sad. Yes even a positive person such as me, have my break down and stressful life., as they say..life must go on. Look on forward and always think positive and positive things will head your way. I must now learn from what ever mistake I've made. To what wrong I have done.. its no matter to whom. I must go through that path without any regret and no looking back. Look back only to reflect what I do, so that I can change for my better self.

Wordless Sunday

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Assalamu'alaikum w.b.t~ Hello! and how are you friends? we meet again somehow. It is an wordless sunday for me, sitting around waiting for a time bom.. err.. you can say its a time bom anyway.. hahaha..due to baby coming though. :p am so happy! ( ˘ ³˘)♥ well sweetness can come later. On the topic today hold on to my keyboard lemme brain storm. . .♒((⇀‸↼))♒ OMG (－‸ლ) *facepalm* nothing came out of my brain.. haha this is really funny~ @___@ okay, now am just listing to David Choi music while writing this blog an all I just gotta share this song to everyone.. you're my friend :3 future in it Hikakin. if you read my blog I did mention about him on the beatbox sections..admire him lol~ his beatbox is sick same goes to Sophia KiddBeatz. Hey enough about beatbox here is the song!

Nice no? yeap that's what I think so too~ Well said..I just really don't have any idea for now what to update, but absolute just love to update something because its been a while that I haven't update anything hardly. Its so boring being on facebook for so long that you notice nothing more can excite me there..thus only the games that I've played for a while and stop for a while and played it again.. sheesh..felt like am not living it right. well this time of a month I not just wanted to go out somewhere it has to wait for this next coming Saturday..going on a journey to my friend wedding..in Perak. Miss my girlfriends so much! gonna meet up with the bride and another bestie of mine~ Hope everything goes well with my friend wedding..amin ლ(o◡oლ) o~yeah.. 

Well I guess this is just about it for my updates here nothing more..If I have anything up I'll post about it in the future! Thanks for coming by and read my updates. Even thou its nothing much out of it. Take care friends! see you on the next update! tata!

p/s: (╯▅╰) am hoping for some long fun update on my life event. ^___^

Love;

zety

Hanyutan Laut Hati

Meronta jiwa,

bait-bait suci di kotori lagi,

mula di sayang akhir di tendang,

nasib pusar binasa hati,

payung di bawa lindungi diri,

koyak separa terobek rosak,

pergi ke mana hai berhati-hati,

hilang di dasar setelah hanyut nestapa,

permata intan tiada tandingan,

penyapu menumpang berdiri,

di pandang tidak di puji tidak,

jatuh lelah penant menanti..

bilang angka tidak sebaik satu,

di bela di lebih,

di sebalik satu..

- Aku

Meniti Hari

Bismillah..

Assalamu'alaikum.. sedar tak sedar..banyak sudah masa berlalu, saya meniti hari-hari ini dengan sabar dan sabar. Perut semakin membesar :) sukenye~ seronok rasa baby kecil angurah pemberian Allah s.w.t ini bergerak-gerak serta bermain dalam perut ni. Amanah yang bakal saya dan suami didik, semoga Allah berikan saya dan suami segala kekuatan, kesabaran serta ketabahan dalam mendidik seorang khalifah di muka bumi ini. Hari-hari kalau boleh nak dengar baby dalam perut ni, tapi~ telinga tak sampai ke perut.. ekeke..hanya pada scan dari doctor aje lah dapat lihat anak ku~ Hati ini bakal cair melihat badan kecil serta senyuman dan mendengar tangisan dari si kecil ni..

photo thanks to mr.Google

Besar sungguh pemberian Allah s.w.t, pelbagai persoalan yang timbul dalam diri.. ada negative.. ada positive. Tidak pasti bagaimana, mampukah diri ini menjagaanya dengan baik..Mohon Petunjuk Dari Yang Esa agar dapat membinbing saya dan suami ke arah yang betul. "insyaAllah" kata suami. Saya hanya mampu senyum mendegarnya.. adakalanya saya fikir.. hebat sungguh ibu dan ayah kita mampu membersarkan anak-anak mereka ni yang nakal-nakal sehinga  dewasa. Pengorbanan mereka cukup besar.

Terfikir sama ada kita selama ini berlaku adil terhadap ibu bapa kita sendiri.. kadang-kadang menggeleng kepala sendiri..dalam hati berkata aku masih muda dan belum matang lagi sewaktu itu.. mungkin ini adalah pengajaran diri sendiri. Akan tetapi kasih sayang ibu bapa tak pernah hilang tidak pernah susut. MasyaAllah..besar sungguh kehadiran kasih sayang Allah.. hanya satu sama ada kita sedar atau tidak. :) Allahhuakbar..

From Malaysia With Love

Assalamu'alaikum~ Lama tak update blog ku.. dah berkarat, ramai dah tak visit.. kiki.. :p nak buat mcm mana semnjak dua ni sibuk memanjang, ada kalanya saya tak ada masa nak jenguk blog sendiri pun sedih.hehe.. lagi pun semenjak mr.lappy saya down ade masalah, mungkin HD atau processor ade problem saya nak update tak lalu~mana tidaknya.. tak ade window live writer kat PC suami saya ni. Haa.. buat yang tak tahu.. Saya sudah berkahwin.. alhamdulillah dalam bulan march tu la.. hehe.. tu saya update tulis romance in march tu.. >_< ahak..malu~ sekarang Alhamdulillah..saya di sahkan mengandung.. berapa bulan? hampir nak masuk 5 bulan.. tak lama lagi.

Update kali ini sy tidak akan cerita tentang details di atas.. akan tetapi cerita tentang sudara kita di Egypt. Sedih hati bila lihat ramai yang terkorban, di bunuh sesuka hati, ibarat kami seperti tidak bernyawa atau bukan orang. Akan tetapi..walaupun dalam kesedihan.. melihat sendiri wajah saudara kita yang di tembak, walaupun dalam keperitan, mereka mati dalam syahid! tersenyum! ya.. boleh google dan cari lah gambar rakyat Egypt yang sedang begempur mempertahan kan Islam, dan masih mempercayai Morsi! Allahhuakbar! sungguh saya amat bangga akan beliau sebagai pemimpin yang bededikasi menegak kan Islam agar subur dalam jiwa rakyatnya,. Alangkah indah jika beliau di ambil contoh pemimpin kita masa kini.

Sedih, buat masa ini yang termampu sy buat adalah menunjukkan sokongan pada Egypt dengan menukar profile pic..yang mana ramai kawan2 sy telah saya lihat sudah menukar jugak Alahmdulillah.. #R4BIA dan ade jugak page rabia di facebook menunjuk kan update2 dari sana berikut adalah link. :https://www.facebook.com/R4BIAWall?fref=ts boleh klik dan like, it up to you to decide nak lilke atau tidak. tp sebagai menunjuk kan sokongan itu sahaja buat masa ini yang boleh kita lakukan. Berita yan terkini saya dapat dari page The News Shoot, bahawa pelajar kita yang berada di sana di beri amaran untuk tidak mengupdate apa-apa di facebook atau media masa. Saya berharap pelajr Malaysia yang berada di sana dalam keadaan selamat.

Semoga Jihad saudara-saudara ku di rahmati Allah s.w.t..walaupun teruk rupa jasad tidak bernyawa ada yang tiada rupa langsung, saya cuma mampu memohon doa pada Allah..agar jihad mereka adalah syahid selamanya. Sangat-sangat sedih, saya ada lihat video di facebook dari sana, wanita berhijab,dan berpudah.. di tembak mati begitu sahaja, semoga mereka yang terkorban tidak tersiksa di penghujung nyawa.. Allahhuakbar! tidak dapat gambarkan bertapa luluh hati ini bila melihat itu semua. Mungkin ini sudah termaktub akan terjadi. Sudah tertulis, Adakah Akhirat bakal menjelma, nauzubillah.. bertaubatlah segera! takut akan kekuasaan Allah adalah lebih baik dari takutkan pada benda yang ada di bumi ini.

Saya mengharapkan ramai yang sedar dari begembira selalu, ya, kita harus besyukur dengan pemberian yang kita dapat, tapi masih ramai yang tidak tahu untuk bersyukur, leka, lupa segala.. Allah tunjukkan lah mereka jalan yang benar. Marilah sama-sama tunjukkan sokongan kita sekadar yang termampu melalui doa dan harapan untuk mereka, dan juga. #R4BIA!

This Is my support to my brother and sister!

p/s: adakalanya kita perlukan orang untuk mengingatkan kita terhadap ape yang kita lupa. mari lah sama ingat mengingati..insyaAllah..

Siapakah Aku?

Bismillah..
Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t dan salam sejahtera buat semua kawan-kawan yang sudi membaca blog saya yang serba kekurangan ini. Siapakah aku? persoalan ini timbul bukan kerana saya ingin menceritakan kepada semua siapa diri saya. Tidak jauh sama sekali, persoalan ini saya ujarkan pada diri sendiri. Saban hari saya di landa pelbagai dugaan dalam hidup, bermacam cubaan saya terima semenjak di gelar tunangan orang. Orang kata, bila bertunang banyak dugaan..ya, saya dah merasainya. Dahsyat..ya..dahsyat, itu lah ayat yang mampu saya katakan untuk meggambarkan apa yang saya lalui, akan tetapi saya sering kali mengingatkan diri sendiri untuk sentiasa berfikiran positive and memandang kehadapan..memandang sesuatu yang subjective ke arah yang lebih baik dari negative.

Ape kena mengena tajuk dengan cerita saya ni? Ini adalah persoalan yang saya sendiri tanya pada diri setiap kali bila saya hadapai tamparan hebat dalam hidup dan rasa bagai susah untuk teruskan perjalanan, saya sebagai manusia..sifat manusia yang kurang sempurna itu tetap ada pada diri saya. Salah satunya sifat amarah ramai gagal untuk mengawalnya..termasuk saya, akan tetapi..sekadar mencuba dan menduga rasa marah itu dengan persoalan yang mungkin menjadi pemadam api kemarahan itu sendiri. Selain dari menyuruh diri sendiri untuk sabar, tanya soalan ini pada diri sendiri. Walaupun dalam seharian kita rasa hidup kita susah dan ape yang kita laui itu tidak mudah untuk di lupakan malah untuk maafkan. Fikirlah, saban hari setiap manusia yang berada di muka bumi ini menghadapai dugaan yang lagi perih dan lagi dahsyat tamparannya terhadap kehidupan mereka.

Jadi..adakah kita masih lagi di panggil kurang bernasib baik/malang dalam lalui kehidupan? tepuk dada tanyalah diri sendiri. Siapa aku, hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu, buarpun ramai yang seringkali membuat rumusan mereka sendiri tentang siapa diri kita..biarkanlah mereka, yang penting Allah tahu kita siapa. Seandinya perkara yang di nyatakan terhadap kamu itu tidak betul biarkanlah, Allah tahu siapa kita. Kenapa persoalan ini harus saya tanyakan pada diri saya sendiri? sebabnya, seringkali..bila terjadi sesuatu, kita lupa kita di duga oleh Allah s.w.t. Diri kita adalah Hak Milik Kekal DIA. Hanya DIA yang berkuasa keatas diri kita, seandainya dugaan itu melanda, tanyalah diri kita siapa aku? Jadi untuk itu, tidak kira apa pun yang terjadi dalam hidup kita..relakan sahaja ia terjadi, maafkanlah segala yang telah berlaku, lupakan persengketaan dengan menitipkan kata – kata sabar.

Bukalah minda ke arah yang lebih positive! InsyaAllah, hati kamu akan lebih tenang, ada quota Islam yang saya terbaca baru-baru ini..”Hadapailah segalanya dengan senyuman.” maksudnya, hadapilah segala rintangan dan dugaan darinya dengan hati yang lebih terbuka..serta menerima Qada & Qadar Illahi terhadap dugaan Nya. Kerana Hanya DIA yang lebi mengetahui apa sahaja kesedihan dan kepayahan yang melanda diri kita, ada kemanisannya di setiap penghujung cubaan Nya.

p/s: life is sweeter if you forgive, life is better when you forget, life is peaceful ones you move on, at the end of every journey. there is a happy path for your future.. InsyaAllah, just remember that. ^_^

Wait For Me ❤

bismillah..
Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t and a very good day too all.. Its that time of the month I made my self update my beloved blog. (♥♥,) haha.. :P. Alright back to the big questions marks on my entry this time. What is with that? wait for me love♥..? heh~ if you can guess it right I gonna have to take you out for an ice cream..haha.. but well at the end of this entry anyone who read this will know that the big question marks on their head is being replace with a smile ^_^. hehe.. Well last month on my update is a special “momento” vibe on to it for me. So, the moment of truth! its near to its ends.

Love is blind, this word is so true..but my truth is being in a different page of what you guys had in mind. Here goes some actual thing that run down in my mind, how could someone who said that they found love but still fall in love with someone else other then his/her “boyfriend/girlfriend”? okay..now let me ask you was it fate? or choice? My answer “yes” to both. Why? Okay here are my own way of making my statement of what I think. No one in this freaking free world is PERFECT! got that? okay if you still don’t get it I will elaborate it further.

If your thinking is “am not perfect so I can fall in love with someone else then the one I am with?”. Wrong.. /˚,˚\ why? heh~ here is what I think of it really. Doesn’t meant that if your are not perfect you can fall in love with some others..love is blind is not an options of or way for you to run off with someone else and it also doesn’t meant that you “have to” find the one that is with perfect appearance from top to bottom, and must “have” good attitude..In which world are you born on? (O_O) OMG okay! that is one bad thinking..and why I say yes to fate and choice? alright, to me the word fate is useable with everyone we are fated to meet from the day we are born, you are fated to be born in the hands of an doctor, when you are in kindergarten you are fated to meet new friends there, even when you grown older, you are fated to meet friends from school, work place, friends of friends becoming friends.. isn’t that fate? yes it is..then there come the time you fall in love with someone, and you have the choice to make the decision, the choice is in your hand.

When ever you see someone you love, do you look at them base on their looks? or other then that? that is not blind.. O_O looks when you grow older it will be just like you grandma or grandpa.. how do you look at them? they are still charming and cute in their own way, that’s my thinking. Okay let’s further without anymore guessing.When you fall in love, the choice came is when you make him/her to be the one you love. You get pass by the wrong thing they done, the bad attitude, the silly mistake, the same mistake, the stupid mistake..any mistake that they do.. THEY ARE SIMPLY HUMAN just like you. They are not perfect, well if you get pass all that by fixing things slowly..change together slowly..everything takes time..in time you’ll be surprise by what you find out your love one can do for you in return. It will melt your heart, made your heart warm, make you fill that you are a fool in love and you are filled with love. That is what I called “love is blind”.. No matter what..you still think them as they are not perfect..if them can forgive your mistakes, be patience with you, with your naughty side, bad side, even seen you at worst but still wanna be with you, why? why couldn’t you do the same for the one you love?

Now you get me? okay.. one last thing.. be glad and thankful to your Creator for the such person whom bloom in your hearts right now..Trusts me! if you see the word “love is blind” the way I did..You will get the love you always wanted. just make sure the one you love is willingly do the same thing you did. (˘‿˘ʃƪ) Just like me and my beloved fiance. I am filling lucky cuz I found love, for whom is someone I called a friend. When I choose him..I do make sure it will be the last one. I known him for 3 years as friend,then coupled for 8 month and then engage..it has pass the 1year being a coupled.. I found love that My God gave me. I am very thankful, small things can make a big different in your own life. I do admit, to find love is hard..but if you have one who did that for you..see things the way you do.. stick with them! don’t you ever let that filling go! when you choose to fall in love with someone else.

The love you have broken them heart off, will walk away FOREVER..and you will NEVER find anyone the same as them. Then you’ll regret all the things you did, then its too late to mend things back. If so happen you were left by the one you love.. go and move on, DON’T LOOK BACK at your past..make a new future with someone who will most appreciates you present in their life..stick with em..make sure that you choose is right..it means.. You really know that person..before moving on forward. Happiness is in your hands once you know what to do with it. Your fate, you choose cuz its your choice.. ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ) hehe.. :X wow..I did it this time a long content of one small subject and hidden from the entry headings.. haha..

Alright.. About the love wait for me.. I will update to you.about it, when the time has come and the event is finish.. that is a promise.. ^_^ v

p/s: wow.. lookie lookiee… its almost the end of march O_O nerve break down! Till next update people! tata! （‐＾▽＾‐）

p/s/s: Love my Sayang even more! (ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc) xoxo.

Romance in march

bismillah..
Assalamau'alaikum.. and a very good day people. :D Well this past month I haven’t been so active on blog, some reasons are I’m simply resting my brain off from any hectic might be involving the internet such as facebook. I’ve been spending my time with my family, and hogging the thing called novels *mine!!mine!!mine!! muwahaha*, haha.. yea..at first to find some inspirations but in the end, I was too lazy to check or update my own blog..but I’ve been reading thou..LOL. Well some other things I was busy with, well can’t talk about it cuz.. its not the right time yet.

oh and well what’s up with the title? *heartbeat sound* :O Its only February, isn’t it the time of romance is in february? me? celebrating V-day is against my religion. So I don’t celebrate it, but it doesn’t mean I don’t celebrate love..I do it everyday, with my family..especially my mom and dad. ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ) and my love ♥(ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc) Why March? well for starters, something big is going to happen on March! something wonderful and it will change my life (˘‿˘ʃƪ), counting down to that day makes me nervous, throughout all of my experience in my love life..I’ve never imagine that things like this could happen to me.

My close friends will know what will happen on march and include my family of course \ (•◡•) / yay! right. Reason for this update’s is really is to dedicate this post to someone that I love. I am really..really..really loved by him..thank you Allah for this love..and thank you sweetie~ ✿◕ ‿ ◕✿ I have never made an update that is specifically only for him. *෴* I know, its it my past experience, teach me that telling the world will take some time off until the time really good and right moment. But my closed friends know already after a couple of weeks we’d declare our status of being in a relationship, men that was very nerve wracking..but as good as the word gets out, everyone is happy for both of us. ≧◡≦

Love is in the air for me, ever since I know he have that feelings for me, at first I was telling my self “bahh..no way he could have feelings for me” well it just clicks my feeling the time when we have a “fight” as a friend, he was angry after all off my pain he said I went to someone else *in ingame world, I know sounded ridicules but its the truth* for some reason that time it just click but I wasn’t sure to my self. Regardless the past I have fallen for a guy from the previous game I played..but all was for something else then love. Cold hard truth yeah I know (╥﹏╥), or maybe that time I was too naive to see or was still too young to know what I really wanted from love. Well every one makes mistake in life, one hard life lesson I get when I am down on the drain way far from love. Some people says “Don’t look for love, let love find you” now I know the meaning of that quotes. Love is just right in front of me, I was just too blind to see what’s there for me, and who was there for me when I needed most..of cause my friends and one of the part of friends was him (⊙.⊙(☉_☉)⊙.⊙).

I know how I can’t imagine that at first..right in front of me ≧^◡^≦ , well hunny sorry at first I really don’t realize it. Thank you for coming into my life and made me your princess ♥. Through the year, I’ve learn to love you, through time I’ve learn to accept your imperfection that Allah gave too all of HIS creations, all that time we went through..you accept me for who I am, and lil by lil you change me and you never afraid to tell the world that I am your girl. Heh~ now I am your fiance. Like I said earlier in skype chat, that it’s like a dream waking up everyday to have someone like you in my heart. Thou sometime we have difference comments on things..hehe..that difference made us like a glue, thou we had a small fight..you always come back to make sure I sleep every night with a smile on my face. I love your imperfection hunny, even thou its hard..but I’ve learn in time,and I know that I am not prefect too.

Hunny, after all what we’ve been through..I hope you keep being strong with me together to get through things that is coming in our way in life. You’ll always be my knight and shining armour, hey..we made it this far and I am not going to give up like the song you gave me when I was sad and down “Jason Mraz – I Won’t Give Up”. I am looking forward to the future, no more looking back or being sad of something that have been gone for so long. I’ll be cheering for you, to never give up our dreams, never give up with facing a problem..I know, that you know every problem has its solutions.. yay for positive energy..! you always lights me up again when I am sad, you are my very own candy. I can never clam when I am with you, there is something bout you that I can’t really say and hard to tell cuz it’s like magic.. (˘‿˘ʃƪ)

Well I know don’t get bored reading my entry.. :P this all written from what my hearts content of you, you know what it feels when I am with you listen to “ Lauryn Hill – Can’t Take My Eye’s Of You ” And the last song dedicated to you. is the song I gave you last month I think. ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ). here:

I love this song! its very sweet!

P/s: Well that’s all for now, Hope I can bring back my writing back in action more soon. Even so to my sayang (darling/dear/hunny*in english*) I love you!!!! ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ) (◡‿◡✿) (ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc) xoxo

Online game

Hello and welcome to my humble blog.. I’ve recently change the blog web address as I am for told that co.cc is close and have been band.. am unable to use my old blog web address for now.. :) so for the mean time I’ll be using blogspot, until am able to get a new web address. ^_^ still hoping all those who read my blog know I am still here.. :D

Alright that explanations is settled..now back on to the online game topic, I did say that I’m gonna do a reviews on the online games I’ve played either way..I might add in the game I’ve played in facebook too. Okay, the reviews will be updated by weeks. :D It will start from the 1st online game I am addicted to loong ago.. haha.. alright just a lil update to let you know what’s update is coming. oh off topic, New recipes, wait for it ^_^ tata..

Brain Maze.

Assalamu’alaikum~ ohyeah, brain maze, deducted, plus, minus still the same, only status engage and in love ♥. What’s up with brain maze with my life? well in other words, am trying to make the end conclusions how can a super duper private facebook can be hack so easily..? I am too confuse..and plus my week from the start of Monday morning..It HASN’T BEEN THE SAME! because my work performance is going down the drain all by it self. I really don’t like to bring my personal matter to work.. but I really can’t stop thinking bout it. blergh~ In just one day, I have been angry at by my senior colleague, my supervisor, my boss daughter, and again my colleague..

Had enough bout it..they all told me the same thing..repeatedly for 4 time~ @_@ wow that is annoying..felt like am some deft person who can’t hear, either to talk. what kind of system was that?? O_O! for some reason, I just feel like am not really in a good mood. well that’s all the feeling shouting on my blog. the end. :)

Dugaan

Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t.. Ya Rabbi, banyak betul dugaan., masuk hari ini bertalu-talu dugaan saya dapat, sabar sahaje lah yang saya mampu buat. Perkara yang baik datangnya dari Allah s.w.t, yang buruk dari kelemahan diri saya sendiri. ^^ senyumlah wahai diri ini~ kerana segalanya adalah atas kehendak NYA. Kawan datang silih berganti..kalau kawan itu benci pada kita, nak buat macam mana., mungkin kawan ittu tak dapat nak terima kelemahan diri saya ni~ semanis-manis mulut mungkin manis kata-kata yang di hias dengan tipu daya mampu membuat seorang kawan itu kekal bersama, tapi ayat dan kata-kata benar membuatkan orang benci pada saya, Alhamdulillah~ saya terima seadanya apa sahaja yang mereka bisa katakan pada saya di sebaliknya.. fitnah atau apa saya tidak pasti.. yang pasti., hanya kerana perkara kecil sebesar zarah.. orang mampu membenci kita dengan tiada taranya. terima kasih ye sahabat. terima kasih kerana sudi menjadi sahabat saya walaupun sementara.. Harap berjumpa lagi, insyaAllah.. itu sudah pasti. amin., hanya Allah s.w.t yang mampu membalas jasa-jasa sahabat yang baik-baik hati ini.. saya bahagia kerana dapat mengenali saudara walaupun sementara. :)

“Allah membenci pada mereka yang memutuskan hubungan siratulrahim” yang penting  saya tidak mahu jadi begini. melaikan atas sebab yang boleh membawa keburukan pada diri saya sendiri, insyaAllah ia di benarkan sama sekali.. ^^

1st week.

Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t~ and hye bloggers reader~ :P Praise to Allah for the ramadhan, so far so good. Okay this update on my engagement day that will be coming soon.. XD *so excited lol* Here the update., last Sunday I went to buy the fabric to make me my engagement kurung morden..yay~ I have settle that from the  list. FYI kurung modern is a upgraded version traditional cloth for Malay girls to wear on or in any occasion its called baju kurung, but kurung modern is have been modified from the normally very first baju kurung for Malay's wear on special occasion such as marriage & engagement day. :D Thank you so much to my sister Zahara for helping on looking for the fabric.. to tell much of the truth.. I really don’t know much bout fashion~ :P lucky to have a sister like her.. ^^ okay on going for DIY. :P

my E-Day Check list.

• - My kurung Fabric. *I ask the favors from my aunt to sew the kurung modern it self.* (DONE)
  - My veil + lace for DIY. *this one my sis aunt will sew the veil.. I wanna do it my self but they wanna help.hehe* (done)
  - Shoes. *found the prefect shoes but have to wait for my salary to buy it lol :X*
  - Heads beautifications. * have not bought it yet. still wait to go out back again with my sis and buy it*
  - Make up. *cutting cost by asking favors from my sister again.*(DONE)
  - Traditional trays *tray that I am going to put my reply gifts on the try for presentation for the groom to be, he will send me 5 gift, I will reply with 7 trays of gift. Favors from my aunt’s husband side of family* (DONE)
  - Pillow for me to seat on. *Aunt going to ask for favors.* (DONE)
  - Food to serve. *this one is not totally confirm yet.*
  - Hantaran. *this have not done yet,asking favors from my sis aunt to make the beautifications for the gift.*
  - Ring. *found the prefect ring, but haven’t bought it yet*
  - Family, Mom’s side. *called and informed on the E-day date* (DONE)
  - Family, Dad’s side. *this I really have no I idea, but my dad will let me know when its done. relax still 30 days to go @_@*
  - Tent & place to sit and talk regards the wedding vow’s date. *so the invited family’s can sit and eat.*(DONE)

Okay, that’s the list, hope everything will go smoothly. Amin~ :D just the lil details that is not done yet.., have to do the return gift using the fresh flowers it has to be made on a day before the E-day. ^^ that’s all for now.

DIY everything.

Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t, and good evening peep’s.. gosh.. how to start this writing here., okay let’s start with my main title there. okay I am very nervous, because I am getting engage this next coming month. Talking bout saving budget., then DIY it goes. I got the idea of DIY on the net, well still in progress for my engagement dress..and I have talk about this with my mom, she said just go with the Kurung Moden, then for the bedazzling I will add on letter on~ >.< I hope it will be finish before the E-Day date. Doa for my best Bloggers.. XD okay the Kurung will be like this below picca..

 

Thanks to miss Gold, her info really helps me a lot, on how to and what. :) very happy indeed.. oh this butterfly wont go away until my e-day~ >.<

Kursus. ^^

Bismillah.. Assalamu’alaikum sahabat blogger ku.. sekian lama saya menghilangkan diri baru hari ini berpeluang untuk menulis kembali journal yang tertangguh. ^^ alhamdulillah selesai sudah langkah pertama dalam hidup saya untuk mulakan rangka kehidupan baru, iaitu membina masjid atau lebih di kenali sebagai melangkah ke alam perkahwinan. Tanggal 12&13 haribulan Mei tahun 2012 saya dan bakal pasangan bersama dua orang adik perempuan dia serta sorang bakal adik ipar lelaki saya berkursus bersama. Kursus yang kami ambil ialah kursus kahwin. hehe.. :P

Syukr sangat Kehadrat Ilahi atas pemberian ilmu rumah tangga yang di peroleh, saya berkursus di Masjid Negara, Kuala Lumpur. Alhamdulillah ilmu yang di peroleh amatlah berguna selepas berkahwin nanti insyaAllah. Tujuan saya menulis perihal ini bukanlah untuk melebih-lebih, tetapi untuk berkongsi pengalaman saya selama 2 hari berturut-turut di sana, dan juga untuk mengajak kawan-kawan yang lain bersama untuk pergi dapatkan  ilmu mengenai alam selepas perkahwinan.

Pengalaman saya berada di sana sangalah berharga, semala kini itulah pertamakalinya saya berada di dalam Masjid Negara yang berdiri dengan indah di tengah bandar Kuala Lumpur. Rasa bahagia berada di sana dengan perasaan tenang dan aman, Subahanallah tidak dapat saya ungkapkan perasaan saya waktu itu dengan kata-kata, benarlah kata orang bersolat berjemaah itu ada kelebihannya, ramai itu mengabungkan kita menjadi satu ummah yang berdiri untuk mendirikan solah bersama2. Bahagia hati dapat menunaikan solah di sana, rasa bagai tak mahu untuk pulang duduk di situ dan tunggu waktu untuk dirikan solat, dan bak kata Ustaz yang memberi kami ilmu itu..lebih barakah belajar dan menuntut Ilmu di masjid yang bersih dan terjaga kesuciannya.

Menurut kajian statistic dari Ustaz di masjid negara, sepanjang menjadi kaunseling untuk pasangan2 yang bermasalah, banyak yang mereka nasihati terlebih dahulu pada kami,berpesan awal2 untuk menjamin masa depan serta lebih berhati2 dalam espek kehidupan berumahtangga nanti. Kata mereka dari sudut kajian yang di jalankan oleh pihak JAKIM, dalam satu hari, setiap 15saat 1 pasangan bercerai di dalam Malaysia. MasyaAllah., besar ujian berumahtangga ni.,. :S takut pun ada., semoga Allah s.w.t memberkati setiap pasangan yang berkahwin untuk kearah keredhan NYA. amin..

Sepanjang saya berada di sana pihak pengurusan jalankan tugas dengan baik, bayaran tidak mahal., serta mampu untuk di bayar, hanya RM80 ringgit untuk kursus 2 hari bersaman nota, sijil dan sedikit juadah untuk hari kedua, kerana sepanjang hari kedua itu, saya berada di sana seharian, sarapan pagi di sediakan, makan tengahari setelah selesai solah zohor, dan minum petang, terlebih berbaloi RM 80 untuk ilmu yang berharga, nota berupaya buku untuk basic knowladge yang diberikan serta boleh di simpan untuk rujukan dan tidak lupa pengalaman sepanjang dua hari berada di sana. Untuk sijil akan di keluarkan sendiri oleh pihak JAKIM setelah seminggu selepas berkursus, boleh di ambil di tempat berkursus, pada setiap hari sabtu dan ahad., kecuali pada hari cuti umum atau atas sebab pengurusan2 terpaksa di tangguhkan.

baiklah sampai di sini sahaja perjalanan hidup saya. InsyaAllah., seandainya saya ada masa lagi akan adalah update di blog yang serba biasa ini. amin. Jumpa lagi :D

Tentuan.

Angin malam meniup sepoi-sepoi bahasa, bagai lembutnya bicara sang bidadari. Layar melayari dinari sepi mengajak sang insan tidak kira yang muda mahupun yang lanjut usia melepkan mata untuk rehat dan harap bermimpi saujana seindah permai..cewah! aha~ lama tak menulis.. rindu rasanya. Amacam leh lagi lah tu, banyak yang kena di perbaharui, XD

Tahun ni busy/sibuk dengan bermacam kerja, tak macam sebelum ni.. relax memanjang.. bermacam halangan tahun 2012 ni, saya nak buat macam mana, nak atau tak nak, dengan seraya berkata terpaksa untuk lauinya..kerana itulah pengalaman.. walaupun mulanya dengan perkataan “gagal”. Gagal tak bermaknaya selamanya gagal..tetapi harus berusaha lebih untuk berjaya.. ya..itulah saya. Orang kata hendak berjaya bukan senang, apatah lagi untuk menjadi seorang yang berkerjaya..saya pasti walaupun terhalang, ada sebab di sebaliknya saya di beri jalan yang sebegini, mungkin pasti ada yang menati saya jika benar saya menetapkan kemanuhan saya seboleh-bolehnya untuk sesuatu itu…dan saya pernah gagal untuk mendapatkan seseorang terdahulu saat saya semahu-mahunya inginkan itu., kecewa itulah ayat yang pertama yang muncul di hati. Mungkin sebabnya bukan datang dari saya..mungkin Allah ingn tunjuk kan saya suatu yang lebih baik.

Syukur Alhamdulillah, di peringkat awal ini masih baru, tetapi saya selesa bersama si dia, kerana saya akui..dialah sahabat karib saya, yang tak tersangka akan menjadi seorang yang istimewa dalam hidup saya. :D sebab apa? cuba dengar lagu Ne-Yo yang bertajuk “never know I needed” :D mungkin boleh faham maksud saya dari lagu itu. hemm Atas ketentuan saya bediri dan di landa pelbagai masalah juga rintangan.. ada setegah orang jalan mereka senang dan terbentang luas.. ada yang harus lalui jalan yang jauh untuk berjaya.. tak semestinya kalau bersama untuk menjayakan sesuatu itu idea yang bagus.. ada kalanya idea itu tak sebagus mana, andai kata seorang lagi seperti saya masih jauh perlu berlari untuk mengapai impan tersebut. Muda mudi segar bugar andai jalan ku masih jauh.. masa itulah kita perlu berusaha LEBIH dari orang lain yang senang dalam susah. If your  not in my shoes.. you wouldn’t understand me. Don’t simply say.. i didn’t try to do my best to make things work out as it is.. XD

That’s all everyone.. and happy new year..
assalamua'laikum w.b.t~ dan salam sejahtera.. :)

Persepsi PELUANG.

 

Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t dan salam se-jahtera, wazzap readers! aite! hari ni saya ingin bercerita tentang persepsi PELUANG dalam masyarakat kita yang kini kian pesat membangun ini. Ya! persepsi kehidupan, kenapa ya..? hrum..sedar tidak sedar dalam diam kesibukan dalam melakukan apa sahaja.. kita lupa untuk berhenti berfikir dan memandang suatu perkara itu sebelum kita sendiri menyebutnya. Sedar atau tidak, kita akan sebut perihal “peluang” dalam apa jua bentuk sekalipun, tak kira dari dalam hari seharian, bersama keluarga ataupun semasa bercinta. Perasan tak? O.O! apa? tak perasan? meh saya refresh memori awak.. dialog dia bunyi begini. “awak, tolong beri saya satu peluang lagi.. please.. maafkan saya” dapat tak maksud saya? O.O? tak paham lagi? macam ni lah, dalan hidup kita sebagai manusia selalu ada perkataan peluang. Contoh senang ‘mencari peluang pekerjaan’. hehe.. got the drift? good! okie sekarang ni saya dah dapat perhatian dari awak dan awak sedang berfikir..

Pukau.

Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t dan salam sejahtera, sudah terang lagi bersuluh topic journal entry saya kali ini. Kawan-kawan, baru-baru ini kes pukau terjadi di kalan keluarga saya sendiri. Perkara ini terjadi pada abang saya yang sulong. Kehilangan dia memberi kami syak pelbagai andaian. Kisahnya.. Pada malam sabtu ebih kurang dalam 2.30 pagi bertarikh 01/10/2011 abang saya bertolak ke Port Dickson kerana dia berkerja di salah sebua chalet di sana. Dia pada awalnya akan mula berkerja semula pada hari isnin 03/10/2011, tetapi ayah saya  dapat pangilan talifon dari majikan dia menyatakan dia tidak hadir bekerja seperti selalu. Laporan di buat pada 04/10/2011 setelah di sahkan hilang lebih 48jam.

My Life Journey Starts.

 

first of all Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t.. to my Muslim friends and Good day to all.. As per today~ I have been tryin to change my self to someone I have yet to meet most in common years to come.. someone SUCSESSFUL and someone have meets her target in live. Well so far so good..I have not yet confuse my self.. nor having to run around aimlessly ingame for the time being. ;D really shock me these days after awhile in some kiddy conflict I have been in makes me realize that Am still NOT good enough..not good enough to make someone special in my life to be happy for what I concur. That 2 yes (two) special person in my life, as I see it now to be my purpose on living a life and given a life~well one of them purpose.. hehe.. ;P