A memory in the past

Assalamu'alaikum.. Bismillah~ Hello, hi and welcome friendly reader. I have come today after a year of updating in my last post. There's a lot of stuff going on right now. I am my own slow phase in recovering from my depression., I would love to tell you the story, but not today. Today is the day where I should put my most awesome person pin down forever here and in my heart.

In regards the event that has happen to me. My beloved father pass away. (innalillahwa inna hirojiun) 18/01/2016. This date will be the date I will remember most. everything that happen before and after. Allah Almighty love my abah (father) more. He was in pain, and he suffers many years before he pass away. It sadden me, seems like I was in the spot of the time. People are pointing fingers and telling me things. 4 word "I wasn't born prefect".

I humbly accept their words of punishment to my brain. Telling me what to do, telling me what I did wrong. I don't know why people never did ask me and had a heart to heart talk rather then lashing their anger on me. Instead of lashing out..how bout try the word "heart to heart" like an adult would do?. My father is on his death bed.. struggling to stay and breath so hard. He heard what they said..he heard what I scream on to about. 

I am not a perfect daughter, but all I can do is make something else matter. A small help which my mom and dad couldn't do at that time. I don't tell people to look matters in my own point of view. I just want them to know what they failed to ask me before lashing me off. I just want to be heard, something like a fathers daughter couldn't do is to ask an advice at time he is to sick to be able to get up on his own. What am I suppose to do other then support in silent..I can't even look at him straight without crying..or feeling sad and sorry for him. I am not perfect abah..I hope you heard me when I ask you for forgiveness 4 days before you passed.

photos from google

That's the only thing I can hope for, and hope you be happy where you are at now, no pain, no sadness. I can only pray in silent and hope Allah s.w.t forgive the sin no matter how big it is, and take you to heaven and be bless with heaven eternity. I love you abah. I hope to see you again and hug you and cry on your chest. I miss you abah. Semoga roh abah di tempatkan bersama orang yang beriman. amin. There's nothing more I wish for my dad except happiness forever to where ever he is in heaven.

I am sorry if this post is a lil sad. Yes even a positive person such as me, have my break down and stressful life., as they say..life must go on. Look on forward and always think positive and positive things will head your way. I must now learn from what ever mistake I've made. To what wrong I have done.. its no matter to whom. I must go through that path without any regret and no looking back. Look back only to reflect what I do, so that I can change for my better self.

Wordless Sunday

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Assalamu'alaikum w.b.t~ Hello! and how are you friends? we meet again somehow. It is an wordless sunday for me, sitting around waiting for a time bom.. err.. you can say its a time bom anyway.. hahaha..due to baby coming though. :p am so happy! ( ˘ ³˘)♥ well sweetness can come later. On the topic today hold on to my keyboard lemme brain storm. . .♒((⇀‸↼))♒ OMG (－‸ლ) *facepalm* nothing came out of my brain.. haha this is really funny~ @___@ okay, now am just listing to David Choi music while writing this blog an all I just gotta share this song to everyone.. you're my friend :3 future in it Hikakin. if you read my blog I did mention about him on the beatbox sections..admire him lol~ his beatbox is sick same goes to Sophia KiddBeatz. Hey enough about beatbox here is the song!

Nice no? yeap that's what I think so too~ Well said..I just really don't have any idea for now what to update, but absolute just love to update something because its been a while that I haven't update anything hardly. Its so boring being on facebook for so long that you notice nothing more can excite me there..thus only the games that I've played for a while and stop for a while and played it again.. sheesh..felt like am not living it right. well this time of a month I not just wanted to go out somewhere it has to wait for this next coming Saturday..going on a journey to my friend wedding..in Perak. Miss my girlfriends so much! gonna meet up with the bride and another bestie of mine~ Hope everything goes well with my friend wedding..amin ლ(o◡oლ) o~yeah.. 

Well I guess this is just about it for my updates here nothing more..If I have anything up I'll post about it in the future! Thanks for coming by and read my updates. Even thou its nothing much out of it. Take care friends! see you on the next update! tata!

p/s: (╯▅╰) am hoping for some long fun update on my life event. ^___^

Love;

zety

Wait For Me ❤

bismillah..
Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t and a very good day too all.. Its that time of the month I made my self update my beloved blog. (♥♥,) haha.. :P. Alright back to the big questions marks on my entry this time. What is with that? wait for me love♥..? heh~ if you can guess it right I gonna have to take you out for an ice cream..haha.. but well at the end of this entry anyone who read this will know that the big question marks on their head is being replace with a smile ^_^. hehe.. Well last month on my update is a special “momento” vibe on to it for me. So, the moment of truth! its near to its ends.

Love is blind, this word is so true..but my truth is being in a different page of what you guys had in mind. Here goes some actual thing that run down in my mind, how could someone who said that they found love but still fall in love with someone else other then his/her “boyfriend/girlfriend”? okay..now let me ask you was it fate? or choice? My answer “yes” to both. Why? Okay here are my own way of making my statement of what I think. No one in this freaking free world is PERFECT! got that? okay if you still don’t get it I will elaborate it further.

If your thinking is “am not perfect so I can fall in love with someone else then the one I am with?”. Wrong.. /˚,˚\ why? heh~ here is what I think of it really. Doesn’t meant that if your are not perfect you can fall in love with some others..love is blind is not an options of or way for you to run off with someone else and it also doesn’t meant that you “have to” find the one that is with perfect appearance from top to bottom, and must “have” good attitude..In which world are you born on? (O_O) OMG okay! that is one bad thinking..and why I say yes to fate and choice? alright, to me the word fate is useable with everyone we are fated to meet from the day we are born, you are fated to be born in the hands of an doctor, when you are in kindergarten you are fated to meet new friends there, even when you grown older, you are fated to meet friends from school, work place, friends of friends becoming friends.. isn’t that fate? yes it is..then there come the time you fall in love with someone, and you have the choice to make the decision, the choice is in your hand.

When ever you see someone you love, do you look at them base on their looks? or other then that? that is not blind.. O_O looks when you grow older it will be just like you grandma or grandpa.. how do you look at them? they are still charming and cute in their own way, that’s my thinking. Okay let’s further without anymore guessing.When you fall in love, the choice came is when you make him/her to be the one you love. You get pass by the wrong thing they done, the bad attitude, the silly mistake, the same mistake, the stupid mistake..any mistake that they do.. THEY ARE SIMPLY HUMAN just like you. They are not perfect, well if you get pass all that by fixing things slowly..change together slowly..everything takes time..in time you’ll be surprise by what you find out your love one can do for you in return. It will melt your heart, made your heart warm, make you fill that you are a fool in love and you are filled with love. That is what I called “love is blind”.. No matter what..you still think them as they are not perfect..if them can forgive your mistakes, be patience with you, with your naughty side, bad side, even seen you at worst but still wanna be with you, why? why couldn’t you do the same for the one you love?

Now you get me? okay.. one last thing.. be glad and thankful to your Creator for the such person whom bloom in your hearts right now..Trusts me! if you see the word “love is blind” the way I did..You will get the love you always wanted. just make sure the one you love is willingly do the same thing you did. (˘‿˘ʃƪ) Just like me and my beloved fiance. I am filling lucky cuz I found love, for whom is someone I called a friend. When I choose him..I do make sure it will be the last one. I known him for 3 years as friend,then coupled for 8 month and then engage..it has pass the 1year being a coupled.. I found love that My God gave me. I am very thankful, small things can make a big different in your own life. I do admit, to find love is hard..but if you have one who did that for you..see things the way you do.. stick with them! don’t you ever let that filling go! when you choose to fall in love with someone else.

The love you have broken them heart off, will walk away FOREVER..and you will NEVER find anyone the same as them. Then you’ll regret all the things you did, then its too late to mend things back. If so happen you were left by the one you love.. go and move on, DON’T LOOK BACK at your past..make a new future with someone who will most appreciates you present in their life..stick with em..make sure that you choose is right..it means.. You really know that person..before moving on forward. Happiness is in your hands once you know what to do with it. Your fate, you choose cuz its your choice.. ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ) hehe.. :X wow..I did it this time a long content of one small subject and hidden from the entry headings.. haha..

Alright.. About the love wait for me.. I will update to you.about it, when the time has come and the event is finish.. that is a promise.. ^_^ v

p/s: wow.. lookie lookiee… its almost the end of march O_O nerve break down! Till next update people! tata! （‐＾▽＾‐）

p/s/s: Love my Sayang even more! (ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc) xoxo.

Romance in march

bismillah..
Assalamau'alaikum.. and a very good day people. :D Well this past month I haven’t been so active on blog, some reasons are I’m simply resting my brain off from any hectic might be involving the internet such as facebook. I’ve been spending my time with my family, and hogging the thing called novels *mine!!mine!!mine!! muwahaha*, haha.. yea..at first to find some inspirations but in the end, I was too lazy to check or update my own blog..but I’ve been reading thou..LOL. Well some other things I was busy with, well can’t talk about it cuz.. its not the right time yet.

oh and well what’s up with the title? *heartbeat sound* :O Its only February, isn’t it the time of romance is in february? me? celebrating V-day is against my religion. So I don’t celebrate it, but it doesn’t mean I don’t celebrate love..I do it everyday, with my family..especially my mom and dad. ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ) and my love ♥(ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc) Why March? well for starters, something big is going to happen on March! something wonderful and it will change my life (˘‿˘ʃƪ), counting down to that day makes me nervous, throughout all of my experience in my love life..I’ve never imagine that things like this could happen to me.

My close friends will know what will happen on march and include my family of course \ (•◡•) / yay! right. Reason for this update’s is really is to dedicate this post to someone that I love. I am really..really..really loved by him..thank you Allah for this love..and thank you sweetie~ ✿◕ ‿ ◕✿ I have never made an update that is specifically only for him. *෴* I know, its it my past experience, teach me that telling the world will take some time off until the time really good and right moment. But my closed friends know already after a couple of weeks we’d declare our status of being in a relationship, men that was very nerve wracking..but as good as the word gets out, everyone is happy for both of us. ≧◡≦

Love is in the air for me, ever since I know he have that feelings for me, at first I was telling my self “bahh..no way he could have feelings for me” well it just clicks my feeling the time when we have a “fight” as a friend, he was angry after all off my pain he said I went to someone else *in ingame world, I know sounded ridicules but its the truth* for some reason that time it just click but I wasn’t sure to my self. Regardless the past I have fallen for a guy from the previous game I played..but all was for something else then love. Cold hard truth yeah I know (╥﹏╥), or maybe that time I was too naive to see or was still too young to know what I really wanted from love. Well every one makes mistake in life, one hard life lesson I get when I am down on the drain way far from love. Some people says “Don’t look for love, let love find you” now I know the meaning of that quotes. Love is just right in front of me, I was just too blind to see what’s there for me, and who was there for me when I needed most..of cause my friends and one of the part of friends was him (⊙.⊙(☉_☉)⊙.⊙).

I know how I can’t imagine that at first..right in front of me ≧^◡^≦ , well hunny sorry at first I really don’t realize it. Thank you for coming into my life and made me your princess ♥. Through the year, I’ve learn to love you, through time I’ve learn to accept your imperfection that Allah gave too all of HIS creations, all that time we went through..you accept me for who I am, and lil by lil you change me and you never afraid to tell the world that I am your girl. Heh~ now I am your fiance. Like I said earlier in skype chat, that it’s like a dream waking up everyday to have someone like you in my heart. Thou sometime we have difference comments on things..hehe..that difference made us like a glue, thou we had a small fight..you always come back to make sure I sleep every night with a smile on my face. I love your imperfection hunny, even thou its hard..but I’ve learn in time,and I know that I am not prefect too.

Hunny, after all what we’ve been through..I hope you keep being strong with me together to get through things that is coming in our way in life. You’ll always be my knight and shining armour, hey..we made it this far and I am not going to give up like the song you gave me when I was sad and down “Jason Mraz – I Won’t Give Up”. I am looking forward to the future, no more looking back or being sad of something that have been gone for so long. I’ll be cheering for you, to never give up our dreams, never give up with facing a problem..I know, that you know every problem has its solutions.. yay for positive energy..! you always lights me up again when I am sad, you are my very own candy. I can never clam when I am with you, there is something bout you that I can’t really say and hard to tell cuz it’s like magic.. (˘‿˘ʃƪ)

Well I know don’t get bored reading my entry.. :P this all written from what my hearts content of you, you know what it feels when I am with you listen to “ Lauryn Hill – Can’t Take My Eye’s Of You ” And the last song dedicated to you. is the song I gave you last month I think. ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ). here:

I love this song! its very sweet!

P/s: Well that’s all for now, Hope I can bring back my writing back in action more soon. Even so to my sayang (darling/dear/hunny*in english*) I love you!!!! ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ) (◡‿◡✿) (ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc) xoxo

1st week.

Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t~ and hye bloggers reader~ :P Praise to Allah for the ramadhan, so far so good. Okay this update on my engagement day that will be coming soon.. XD *so excited lol* Here the update., last Sunday I went to buy the fabric to make me my engagement kurung morden..yay~ I have settle that from the  list. FYI kurung modern is a upgraded version traditional cloth for Malay girls to wear on or in any occasion its called baju kurung, but kurung modern is have been modified from the normally very first baju kurung for Malay's wear on special occasion such as marriage & engagement day. :D Thank you so much to my sister Zahara for helping on looking for the fabric.. to tell much of the truth.. I really don’t know much bout fashion~ :P lucky to have a sister like her.. ^^ okay on going for DIY. :P

my E-Day Check list.

• - My kurung Fabric. *I ask the favors from my aunt to sew the kurung modern it self.* (DONE)
  - My veil + lace for DIY. *this one my sis aunt will sew the veil.. I wanna do it my self but they wanna help.hehe* (done)
  - Shoes. *found the prefect shoes but have to wait for my salary to buy it lol :X*
  - Heads beautifications. * have not bought it yet. still wait to go out back again with my sis and buy it*
  - Make up. *cutting cost by asking favors from my sister again.*(DONE)
  - Traditional trays *tray that I am going to put my reply gifts on the try for presentation for the groom to be, he will send me 5 gift, I will reply with 7 trays of gift. Favors from my aunt’s husband side of family* (DONE)
  - Pillow for me to seat on. *Aunt going to ask for favors.* (DONE)
  - Food to serve. *this one is not totally confirm yet.*
  - Hantaran. *this have not done yet,asking favors from my sis aunt to make the beautifications for the gift.*
  - Ring. *found the prefect ring, but haven’t bought it yet*
  - Family, Mom’s side. *called and informed on the E-day date* (DONE)
  - Family, Dad’s side. *this I really have no I idea, but my dad will let me know when its done. relax still 30 days to go @_@*
  - Tent & place to sit and talk regards the wedding vow’s date. *so the invited family’s can sit and eat.*(DONE)

Okay, that’s the list, hope everything will go smoothly. Amin~ :D just the lil details that is not done yet.., have to do the return gift using the fresh flowers it has to be made on a day before the E-day. ^^ that’s all for now.

DIY everything.

Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t, and good evening peep’s.. gosh.. how to start this writing here., okay let’s start with my main title there. okay I am very nervous, because I am getting engage this next coming month. Talking bout saving budget., then DIY it goes. I got the idea of DIY on the net, well still in progress for my engagement dress..and I have talk about this with my mom, she said just go with the Kurung Moden, then for the bedazzling I will add on letter on~ >.< I hope it will be finish before the E-Day date. Doa for my best Bloggers.. XD okay the Kurung will be like this below picca..

 

Thanks to miss Gold, her info really helps me a lot, on how to and what. :) very happy indeed.. oh this butterfly wont go away until my e-day~ >.<

Akad Nikah.

Assalamu’alaikum~alu kawan-kawan, ^^ hari ni sedang saya berjalan-jalan surfing.. singgaperkahwinan dan adat resam serta pertunangan. alhamdulillah ada banyak ilmu yang sudah saya dapat. :D suka lol~ but then ternampak pulak comment2 di bawah post di blog tersebut. :O mengejutkan jugak lah moden sangat orang zaman ni~ bukan nak perlih blog yang berkaitan dgn, tapi terlalu taksub dengan suatu budaya sampaikan budaya nya nak di ikutkan.. salah betul ayatnya skit je, comment tu berbunyi begini :

“Wow! sy suka topik ni even tlmbt.
yalah tu smua kan adat semata bkn wajib pun di sisi Islam.
tp ada sorg kwn sy ckp, klau tunang dia nak ikut style korean buat mjlis di hotel tukar cincin je takyah hantaran sgala. klau kawin dia nak ikut style gereja org putih tp bkn btul2 la cuma konsep dia mcm tok kadi nikahkan psngan tu di hdpn wali, saksi2, dan org rmai dan smbknnya berdosa klau tak buat lgpun alang2 meniru biar smpai meniru pula adat org lain kan. yalah stinya ada la perkataan 'yes, i do' tu. slsai nikah je dorng trus btolak gi honey moon, takyah la sgala prsmbhn silat n karaoke tu, tak heran pun.
klau fkirkn balik, okey je pun cdgn dia tu. sbb adat tok moyang yg kta bt skrg ni pun ditiru dr agama Hindu dunia smakin maju, apa kelas tradisi lama. org Arab kawin pun mcm gaya mat salleh bkn mcm adat kita, so apa slhnya kan.
mgkn mr.dot..dot.dot bole ulas ttg hal ni pula (request)”

Sedihnya tak ramai tahu kenapa adat Akad dan nikah itu di adakan and apa maskud yang sebenarnya. Majlis akad nikah di adakan menurut sumber bacaan saya, simple sahaja semuanya di hujung jari, yang penting tak lari dari apa yang kita belajar terdahulu di maktab mahupun sewaktu di sekolah :).

“Nikah menurut bahasa ialah berkumpul dan bercampur. Menurut istilah syarak pula ialah Ijab dan Qabul (‘aqad) yang menghalalkan persetubuhan antara lelaki dan perempuan yang diucapkan oleh kata-kata yang menunjukkan nikah, menurut peraturan yang ditentukan oleh Islam. Perkataan zawaj digunakan di dalam al-Quran bermaksud pasangan dalam penggunaannya perkataan ini bermaksud perkahwinan Allah s.w.t. menjadikan manusia itu berpasang-pasangan, menghalalkan perkahwinan dan mengharamkan zina.”

Jelas menunjukan disini maksud saya bahawa, saya membida perkatan “Yes, I Do” atau dalam bahasa melayu “Ya, Saya Setuju” tanpa menyebut syarat “Aku terima nikahnya [nama pengantin perempuan] dengan mas kahwin [sebutan mas kahwin] tunai”. Boleh di lihat disini? cuba fikirkan sejenak, bagaimana perkatan “Akad Nikah” atau “Ijab Qabul” akan terjadi tanpa sefahaman pasti antara yang menjadi wali dengan pengantin lelaki? maka saya rasa tok kadi pun tidak akan setuju untuk buat akad nikah yang sesimple begitu. Harus mengikut peraturan, dan bukan boleh sesuka hati mengubah Hukum yang telah tertulis dan di tetapkan oleh Allah s.w.t. :)

Apa pun, nasihat saya buat yang ingin berkahwin dan bakal berkahwin, rajin-rajin kanlah diri anda untuk melakukan sedikit usaha dengan mencari ilmu walau pun sekadar search di internet atau bertanya pada yang lebih berpengatahuan tentang ini. Tidak salah untuk kita utamakan yang Wajib dari mengikut sangat adat-adat yang di buat dari tidak terlalu EXtravaganza jadi ke terlalu melebihi dari had yang di tetapkan~ iaitu ketegory MEMBAZIR. :) Bukan susah pun nak search ni..tanyalah enche google, pasti jawapan anda akan terjawap. ekeke.. ^^ Cuma saya tak faham lah.. pelik pun ya, kenapalah nak lakukan sesuatu lain dari lain. Sedangkan kita hidup di dunia ini sementara, apa yang lain dari lain nya apa sahaja kenangan yang di adakan kelak semuanya hancur.. Apa yang tingal dalam diri adalah apa yang kamu tegakkan selama ini. Agama Kamu :)

P.s: Sekadar berkongsi, Jangan ada yang terasa yah~ kongsi itu cara saya berkasih sayang dengan saudara se’Islam saya. Beringat untuk kebaikan bersama, berubah untuk kejalan yang di redhai Allah s.w.t~ amin.. ^^

sumber rujukan;-
Perkahwinan Menurut Islam.
Rukun Nikah.
Adat vs Agama.

About Breakup’s

Writer: this is a copy paste story, ^^,v so this is not mine, but have something to do with me. (meant something in my life)

Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well,...for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes
locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl
under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But..Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I
see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend:You broke up with her
because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s
broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S
what happened..

P.s: ^^, I couldn’t agree more to “his best friend” words.